La Lune

Lately when I draw the blinds in the morning, I see a bright moon in the West as the sun comes up in the East.

I've been thinking about what kind of resolutions I want to make this year.  Last year was the first year I made really simple ones, unlike previous years.  If you want to feel like a failure make resolutions that require you to rise at 5:00 in the morning, give up chocolate, eat 10 servings of fruits and vegis a day, and spend a minimum of 3 hours in the gym daily.  Ya, those type of resolutions are no good - for me anyway.  Sometimes the most basic resolution can have a dramatic impact, so don't knock simple goals. 

This last year my goals were to read my Bible and make the bed every day.  I did pretty good, better than if I hadn't set the goals.  I chose those two things because I was struggling to get them done every day.  I'm not going to say what my goals are for this year (sorry).  

This year has been a really freeing year for me.  I've learned to set boundaries, not on other peoples actions, but on how I respond to their actions.  I can't stop someone from using a guilt trip form of manipulation, but I have control over how I respond to it.  I used to be scared that if I didn't do what others wanted me to, that they would be angry with me.  I'm now OK with them being angry with me.  That's their action, I can't control that.  

I've lost a few friendships, one of which I thought was a lifer type of friendship.  Shows what I know.  In a hard way I've learned  to hold my relationships loosely.  God has brought some amazing people into my life though this year.  Women who I can look up to and talk personally with.  I'm learning to be thankful for everything they bring into my life, but not to rely on it (if that makes sense).  

We had three families over for New Years Eve supper (no we didn't even try to stay up until midnight).  I can be a little anxious when the house is full of people, as I just want everyone to have a good time.  Then I thought, these are my brothers and sister in the Lord, we will be family forever, and one day in heaven we may sit around a table just like this and eat and laugh without looking through the darkened glass.  And then I just wanted to enjoy them.